Warning! This is not a Halloween prank… just an unedited – no makeup photo of pregnant me!
Body image has never really been one of those things I have dealt with or suffered with through the years. All through high school I was that averaged sized girl who never really thought much about her weight. Weight was never an issue in my home growing up. It was something we never discussed so I really never thought about it. I actually never remember having a set of scales in our home. My parents reinforced good eating habits (most of the time), and I was a fairly active teen. So the high school years were really not that big of a deal.
When college rolled around things changed slightly. I worked out more, but ate much worse. Naturally, my weight went up and I become more self conscious. Then came child bearing! Oh boy does you body ever change once you get pregnant! It was an adjustment, but one that I did not mind too much. That was until this third pregnancy. I am going to contribute it to the fact that this time when I got pregnant I was at my lowest weight in probably six to ten years. Ten pounds less than when I got pregnant with Colton. I was in decent shape because I had been running weekly double digits.
Once I was far enough along to realize I was pregnant the sickness set in and the running slowly faded away. Quickly I started to show. “They” say this happens with each additional pregnancy. Ahhh… and then the weight. There is no way around the scale when you’re pregnant. Once a month you have to hop on and see that nasty number, then every two weeks they make you step up on there! Cruel I tell you… just cruel. Needless to say I had a rough time the first few months with my “body image”. I just felt nasty and fat. It was depressing. I had never experienced this before and did not know how to deal with it. It took me a few months to get over the hump, but now I have decided to just embrace it! Here is proof!
Yep, this is me – this past week… 34 weeks pregnant! We took a mini-vacation to a cabin in the Smokies and my hubby snapped this photo for me to send to my out of town sister-in-law. I rarely post photos of myself on my blog and certainly have never posted one with me so “un-kept”. But I thought, what the heck… this is me. Just the way the Lord made me … and I am going to embrace it! This is most likely my last pregnancy so why not enjoy this baby bump while I have it!?
Besides, I am looking forward to the challenge of getting back to this body… I almost do not recognize myself! Knoxville Half Marathon 2013 here I come!